Tuesday, March 2, 2010

No Regrets

This weekend, some men came and cut down a lot of dead branches out of our sweet gum trees.  I was fascinated by the wood chipper they brought--they fired it up and it chomped up those giant branches and in no time at all, the branches were nothing but sawdust.  I thought, "Wow, wouldn't it be great if there was a wood chipper for life?" 

Then I remembered that I don't believe in regrets.  Well, that's not entirely true.  I don't regret the big things, like my disasterous first marriage.  It hurt like hell going through it and I dang sure wouldn't want to do it again.  But I don't regret it.  I learned a lot.  A LOT.  It toughened me up, which I sorely needed.  It wore off some rough edges.  And it opened my eyes, which helped me recognize Mr. Sweetie as my Mr. Right.  I think I would have passed right by him if not for the lessons learned in my first marriage.

Same thing with infertility...it wasn't fun, I have no desire to go through it again, but I have no regrets.  Infertility was the road I had to take to end up here, as Lil Sweetie's mom, my personal pot of gold at the end of the infertility rainbow.

The things I do regret are the little things...the times when I was impatient and snappish and hurtful to others.  Those are my regrets, and the things I would put through the wood chipper if I could. 

4 comments:

Robin Thomas said...

I am so very fortunate to have you as my friend. Love this post and you.

Zen Mama said...

Personal pot of gold at the end of the infertility rainbow is perhaps the analogy of the year! Love it!!!

Milly said...

We learn for all of that icy stuff. Some are very much harder than others but still we are learning. I know that I am ready to find a man to spend the rest of my life with. I know what I want and know that God most likely has other plans for me. (That's how HE rolls)

I know that having Grace in our lives is wonderful and that for the reason of you and my brother witnessing to others so that they can have wonderful children too is why God walked you two through this.

God bless your path sista!

Karens Hopes said...

just popped in to say hello,I have enjoyed reading your blog and will visit again. If you have time pop over and visit.
Karen